Mark, you are a beautiful, amazing human. Thank you for giving these people a voice - a platform to be seen and maybe even understood better (especially those dealing with SA and/or unresolved childhood trauma). Whatever you decide in regard to Rebecca is whatever YOU are feeling at *any* given time - I hope you give yourself the grace to recognize the cycle and remove yourself from it. Or do that for a week and change your mind - you do SO much for others (no decent person could possibly contest that), please do what you feel is best for you now, two days from now, three months from now, etc.
I don't know if you'll still do the book giveaway for the ones Rebecca signed for your paying subscribers - if not, it would mean the world if I could purchase one from you (I already have the book - ordered it immediately after you shared about it being ready). It's very hard to explain, but you introduced Rebecca at a time in my life that was, and continues to be, extremely impactful. It would be an honor to have the opportunity to purchase one if the drawing isn't happening.
Love and healing to you both.