We are all lost souls living in this giant fish bowl. Be proud you did not stay on that path. You may not feel appreciated because you 'conformed.' That's not the point. The rewards for self-care and perseverance are internal and typically the largest rewards are the bottom half the iceberg, unseen but so much greater and larger than the peak above the surface. If you feel strong enough, share your story to YouTube, have a mock interview with Mark and get yourself seen if you so desire.
Wherever you are right now, you are exactly where you're supposed to be in this moment. Good, bad or ugly. Each moment is a learning experience and we have the opportunity to adapt, improvise and overcome. The secret is pretending to believe it, never giving up and one day waking up and finally realizing you've become the thing you've wanted and the pretending was not just that, but practicing and preparing for the moment you were truly ready to feel the feelings of believing in yourself.
You are not lost, you haven't realized that you are the one to find yourself.